Nuggets,

You're all sitting around the kitchen table playing a game. You're talking, laughing, being passionate, and having a blast. Don't forget this.

Life is going to keep coming (as it is intent on doing), and you're going to fight, argue, and have all sorts of things come up in your lives, but don't forget each other.

Fights

America,

We got in a fight at two AM. The doors slammed, the yelling began, and it was game.on. I'm not afraid of a moment of disagreement. I don't fear his anger, or mine. Why? For starters, it is not often that we come to a point of non communication where it becomes angry. Secondly, because I am thankful that I am safe enough to be angry. I don't take for granted the blessing that I can be unreasonable, or unloving, and the entire foundation of our relationship does not disintegrate. My "happiness" is not the platform on which everything stands. 

I love that we can fight, and the words stay on topic (we have finally learned not to slip-and-slide in to: Why don't we just get a divorce then!?!?! -- Come on, America, are we the only ones to have ever done that!?! ...Bueller??). I'm grateful that I can apologize and have it be accepted. I'm grateful that he can apologize, and I can get a new opportunity to show grace.

Disagreements are beautiful. Out of them spawns so many opportunities for personal growth. They expose and reveal our own flaws and weaknesses in magnificent ways. Last night, as I stewed and raged in my brain to Jesus, my King flipped the anger switch and exposed my own errors. My husband, took responsibility for his wrongdoing, and didn't say a word about mine. What mercy! What might! That the God of the universe fought his battles for him, while he stayed silent. WOW!

I don't like apologizing, America. But I will. Truth is, last night, it was 90% me, and 10% Chief. Truth is, sin still permeates my heart, and destruction still flows out of my mouth. Truth is, that Love is both easy and insanely difficult over and over again.

I am thankful for these moments. I am thankful that it's a new day, with a new opportunity to Love and be loved.