Yesterday was a day of celebration. We got the greatest news that the lobster passed the board and is now promotable. If I'm honest, I don't really have adequate words to say how excited and relieved I am. If I speak in completely honest ways, I would have to tell you that I have not known an individual who deserves it more.

Last night, the girls and I were dancing together in our living room. It was a period of laughter and fun. It was also a great little work out!

This morning, all four of our kids are playing and laughing together.

Today is the anniversary of my Grandfather's death. His death has been the single most painful loss I have ever experienced. Yes I have lost other people who meant the world to me, but they were all believers. My grandfather wasn't.

I miss him constantly, not just today. I can't tell you how many times I've accidentally tried to "call" him even though I know he isn't there. When I was in California, I was over by his house, but I couldn't bring myself to drive by. It hurts too much.

I miss talking to him about the Army, and what it's like to have a hundred kids. I miss discussing politics with him. I miss telling him about my frustrations. I miss hearing him talk about my grandma, whom I don't remember very well. I miss our friendship. My grandfather was my friend.

Yesterday was such a wonderful day of celebration, and today is a sad day of remembrance.