This has not been a good day in regards to Charchee. It has been on/off screaming fits almost all day long. She has been incredibly defiant. All of this has culminated in outrageous behavior. This afternoon, she started destroying a book, so I took it away from her. She proceeded to scream at me that she would do whatever she wanted to. So I put her in time out. In time out, she started punching herself in the face and stomach, and ripping her hair out by handfuls while screaming at me that she was not going to do what I tell her to do.

I realize that every child has difficult times while dealing with deployment. However, this seems like it's moving into a realm that is beyond needing patience, gentleness, and grace. Needless to say, I will be looking for a psychologist. I seriously never thought I'd be having my four year old see a therapist.

I can't seem to make myself stop crying.