You and I are probably two of the unlikeliest of friends. You and I don't really make sense in any sort of human capacity. We piss each other off occasionally, pour salt in wounds, and are just generally completely awkward human beings. We both have to be right. We're both smart (each of us having our particular fields of intensity), capable of arguing to the death on almost all subjects. We're both intuitive, and incredibly perceptive, sappy and insecure. We're secretive, but self preservingly "open" to the world (though you are much less secretive than I).

You didn't save my life. You didn't come in and carpe diem my chaotic universe and make everything better. You aren't my hero, or my partner in crime, or my anyone savior-ish. But yet, you are as familiar to me in some ways, as my very self. And I love you as such.

I have met a lot of people, but I've never met anyone like you. I remember when I so brazenly said that very statement to you about myself. I remember your reaction was very much as if to say "Yeah, right."

I don't really know how to write about you. It's hard because I want to, but I struggle. I feel like I have so many things I need to make clear, but I don't know how. So I speak in ambiguities, and I choose to believe in my heart that the message is clear. We do, afterall, mostly speak the same language.

You are very special to me. Your life matters to me. Your happiness and your peace, and whether or not you laugh, matters to me. If someone hurts you, that matters to me.

I believe in great loves. I met mine ten years ago. He came and took my breath away in that once-in-a-lifetime way and changed me forever by his existence. In a similar way, I believe in great friends. The once-in-a-lifetime friends that come and change you forever. The kind that even if 20 years go by and you never speak again, you always think of them with love and affection, and hope that they're doing well and happy. The kind that you will always love, in some capacity, because the stars aligned so perfectly and it was one heck of a time.

You are one of those great friends in my life. You came and you rocked my life in the coolest way ever. We've had more laughs than I can count, more fights than I've had with any friends ever, more arguments (which I think we actually enjoy, but other people get so sensitive about), more rants, more rabbit trails (and tangents too), and more good advice moments than I've had with any other friend.

I am thankful for you. I'm grateful for being a part of your story. I'm thankful for you being a part of mine. I hope you always know that.