Mr Jones.

I'm supposed to write a little ditty about Chief for our vows renewal that is coming up. Yes, I am started to get pretty darn close to the deadline, but to be completely honest, how do I write enough tiny little words to fill up a 3X5 card about a person who can't be defined? How do I pick a few words to say a lifetime's worth of gratitude? What can I say that will stick with the dude who remember's dates like no other, and can seem to quote things I've said with no trouble at all?

You saved my life. I mean really. I was completely broken. I was curled up on my kitchen floor, seriously considering ending my life, because the honest fact is that no one ever really cared about me. I was on the phone with you and bawling my eyes out about how I must surely be unlovable because no one ever could, would, or did. I think it was the only moment in all my years knowing you where your entire soul was screaming at me, and the ache and desperation in your voice were seeping out. You shouted How could you EVER say that!? I would give ANYTHING to love you if you'd just let me! LET ME LOVE YOU! I would give anything to love you! It was the most impassioned plea. It was filled with desperation, agony, and complete heartache. And it was the first time in my life that I had ever truly, truly known that someone loved me.

You have always known the ugliest sides of me. You have been the object of my deepest agony, my longest darkness, my heaviest burdens. You've been the brunt of my anger, the object of my rejection, the denial of my need. You have felt all of the horribleness I am capable of dishing out. You have never once made me feel like a burden. You have never once made me feel crazy, or insane, or ridiculous. You have never once mocked my immature behavior. You always have placed me above all others, even when I was not your girlfriend.

You have always chosen to see the best in me. You have always chosen to accept my damages. You have laughed at my jokes, handed me tissues when I'm crying, and given me things I never imagined ever having or wanting. You have literally saved my life. You have given me the freedom to fight my demons, the comfort to move past the constant rejections, and the love that my spirit has ached for. You are the only person who knows me. You are the only person that gets me. You are my human version of Agape. You are my mate, my heart, my love.

Thank you for having the balls to dive into my darkness and pull me out of it. Thank you for sharing my life journey with me. Thank you for laughing along this road of ridiculousness with me. Thank you for having four beautiful children with me. Thank you for not jumping ship when it's been tough. Thank you for forgiving my many flaws, and embracing my good traits. Thank you for allowing me to acknowledge my stupidities without shoving them in my face. Thank you for the butt dance, putting up with pillowgate, and my heart's love for a four legged dog who costs us loads of money. Thank you for being strong enough to not only be my man, but to also be my protector, my children's father, my friend.

You and I have always been underestimated and under appreciated by those in our lives. It's pretty freaking neat that together we've been conquering odds and shattering statistics and having one heck of a time doing it. I can't wait to spend a jillion more years being silly with you.