small update

I haven't written much lately. It's not that I don't have any desire to do so, it's just that life has kept me pretty busy.

I have been focusing on my children more and more. The life lesson about my daughter's health (and the miracle that came along with it) really helped to refresh my "momville" perspective. I spend far too much time not loving on them...

So I have attempted to minimize internet/phone/"busy time. I have attempted to engage them, connect, communicate in ways that will give them lasting memories. I have made an effort to remember that I am a role model, whether I want to be or not, and they're watching my conduct.

Even as I write this I'm pretty tired and I'm not very inspired.

What I feel the need to say is that I begged God for the life of my child, and He gave it. I begged, pleaded, cried, screamed and broke into a thousand little pieces and my daughter is miraculously fine. I can't say why we got a miracle when others don't, but I can say that the moment her doctor said she was astoundingly healthy, my heart rejoiced. I was so happy that I couldn't stop crying. It was absolutely beautiful. This news came just days before my 30th birthday. It was the greatest gift I could have been given. :)