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There are times when this hideous aspect of my personality comes out and explodes all over the house. I hate it, every single time. It's upsetting and unsettling and I know it's a terrible example for my children.

Last night I was angry. And I unloaded this basket of anger and frustration and horrible words all over my husband. It was horrible and embarrassing. He, in his love and mercy, told me to go calm down. I didn't listen. I should have.

Finally, I listened to him and went to my room. When I went there, I knew he was upset with me. I knew I had earned his anger. I knew that I'd acted terribly. I also knew that I'd have to go apologize. Do you know what that man did!? Did he come in our room and demand an apology? No. Did he come in there and yell at me and point every single horrible thing I'd done? No. Did he stand in our living room and shout, or break things, or throw things? No. Did he slam the front door and take off to "show me" what I deserved? No. Here is what he did, dear reader: he cleaned the house. Do you know why? So that I could wake up in the morning and see it looking nice. He responded to all of my horrible behavior with love and mercy. He responded with giving me a gift.

I came out to the living room to apologize. My senses had returned and I had to go make things right. I was wrong and I knew it. I hurt the person I loved most in the whole world and I needed to make amends. I needed to reconcile. I am thankful that his forgiveness comes so quickly...

He teaches me so many lessons. His example and his behavior shows me how to be a better person. I have so much more than I could ever have deserved. He truly is amazing beyond my ability to express.